Just Simply

Just simply.

Somebody reminded me that I have not post anything for a long long time. Yes, I do agree. I replied that I have nothing to write, which is partially true.

In fact, the truth is, I don't know how to put my thoughts in words.

People asked me why am I being emo all the time. Hmm. Not going to deny that I was emo. But not all the time. But I noticed the frequency had increased recently.

I guess everyone got his or her own reason to be emo. But of course, I do enjoy being around with friends, and I guess that is the reason I have not got so deeply immersed in the emo-ness yet.

It's just that, there were a lot of thoughts in my head, going through and through.

Letting go. It is just not easy.

Don't get me wrong. Letting go does not necessarily means letting go of a relationship or whatsoever. It can be letting go of a dream, a has-been past, an aim for oneself, a bad memory, and something which a person cared.

I should learn how to let go.

Keep looking back at the past could not change anything. What I can do is to look forward, and make everyday as meaningful and happy. Although still miss what I used to have in the past. The life at home, during secondary school, during Sixth Form, and during first year, and during last semester too!

Suddenly remembered a theory my friend said.

"We must have a balance between happy and emo feelings. Or else, if you are always happy, suddenly when something makes you sad, you will be hit so severely."

Haha. Quite true also. Oh, and by the way, he was quoting a theory from the 'Pengurusan Emosi' module which we took last semester.

Sighs.

If I could care less about all these feelings, maybe I will feel much better.

OK.

That's it. Guessed I fulfilled the blogger part of me. Now, have to go back to all the work. Gonna be busy for this semester.

Lesson for me to learn: Try to enjoy every single second everyday. The past is already the past. Look at the positive side of every aspect of life. =)

My Secret Obsession

Well, many people around me do not really know about this. Or should I say, many people did not expect me to have this hobby. Yeah, I'm definitely talking about

READING!

I love to read. Since young, my parents had been encouraging me to read all sorts of books, whether in English, Mandarin or Malay. I used to go to the public library every Sunday when I was young. It was very enjoyable, and they had this special room for children, where they got couches for us to read comfortably. Comfy comfy.

During secondary school, the school library was my heaven. Sort of la. A bit bombastic here. Haha. They got tonnes and tonnes of books to read, of many languages as well. And the best part was, they were quite updated and bought quite a number of up-to-date books. As known, the price for a book is not cheap at all, normally one would cost around RM30 something at least. So, for me, I definitely could not afford to keep buying books. But, I still had my school library. =p

Read quite a number of books, although not as much as others, I got a lot of benefits from it. Sometimes, I could stay up whole night just to finish a book. Remember the Harry Potter craze? My record was to finish the whole 5th book - Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix in one day plus. Crazy. Oh, my classmate was even crazier. He finished it in just a day. Lol. Besides that, 武侠小说 could make me stay up during the night to finish it too. Ah, "The Legend of Condor Heroes" is my favourite, if I'm not mistaken, I've read it at least 3 times already. Lol.

Speaking about books,

"Books are the quietest and most constant of friends; they are the most accessible and wisest of counselors, and the most patient of teachers." - Charles W. Eliot

Love the quote. Yeah, it was taken from Borders, Times Square.

Hanged out in Times Square this afternoon since the class was cancelled again. At first, we just wanna go out to get some fresh air, and to relieve ourselves. Frankly speaking, I was not in the mood for karaoke and movie. In the end, after having afternoon tea at Secret Recipe, we ended up in Borders.

Bliss.

The calm atmosphere, the classical songs, the smell of books, and the peaceful environment there. "How long I have not feel peaceful like this?" I asked myself. And the answer is, I do not know the answer myself. It seemed so long that I have been detached from the enjoyment of reading a good book. Since I went into university. Since I left school.

There are a lot of books which I have wanted to read. I missed those times where I have indulged in the awesome stories in the books. Those obsessed moments, even during the examination period! Ah, reminiscence.

How I wish that I have more time for books, and of course, the financial support to own the books.

Imagine - A cold afternoon, half lying down on the cosy couch, drinking some English tea, having blanket wrapped around, and reading a good book. Ah, how nice it would be.. ^_^

Sem 3 Break

Oopsie, I've neglected my blog for quite some time, sorry for that dear bloggie. Was just lazy to think and write. Hehe.

So, I'll just post some updates about what I'm doing these few weeks la. You know, as usual, my laziness. =p


1. Sem 3 break
Yup, currently enjoying my Sem 3 break. Roughly, I have 5 days at home. So sad. Holidays seem to get shorter and shorter. Well, home is where the heart is. Yeah, I'm cherishing every minute at home, no matter how uneventful it is. Relaxing, without any worries of this and that, makes me even loath going back to KL. I don't wanna face the stressful life and unnecessary thoughts back there.


2. Operasi Khidmat Masyarakat
Went to this OPKIM at Kampung Nyior Cabang, Langkawi. The place is really peaceful, great village scenery. Some even said, can consider to work there. Peaceful place, fresher air, simpler life, and cheaper cars? Haha! Oh well, I still think Taiping is better. Lol.

Pardon me for my laziness, coz I'm kinda lazy to write the events during the days there. Put it in a simple way - we went and lived with our foster families, and experienced the lifestyle over there. Besides, there were some programs being held as well, such as clinical booth, motivational session with the kids, sukaneka, cultural night and mural drawing.

All in all, it was a good experience, but it was not that great la. Hmm. No offence to anyone, just merely stating out my mind. Maybe I was too tired during that time, and longed to go back home.

3. The Little Nyonya

Finally! I completed watching the series! Last time, I only watched bits of it on AEC during holidays. And so, now I finally finished watching it. Whoa, really a great drama. I love watching the cultural part, with the attire part and of course not forgetting the food part! Rich in flavour, and it certainly brought us back to the past, well, I mean, snippets of it for us the younger generation.

In fact, I've been scolding and scolding while watching the drama. Can ask my youngest sis about it. Well, watch the series, then you'll know why. And, it was just a waste that Yueniang and ChenXi could not be together. T.T

4. New Moon
Went to watch the very anticipated movie with a couple of friends. Frankly speaking, it was ok, but not as good as I thought it is. Maybe it emphasizes more about Bella's loneliness after Edward's abrupt departure in the book, and they could not just portray everything in the movies as it would certainly be quite boring if were to shown on screen.

However, I've got to say that, the werewolves are damn yeng! Haha! But I'm certainly not drooling over them la. Aiyo.

And and and, THANK YOU to our boss, Mr. Ong for the piece of Secret Recipe's cheese cake. =p

Oh, this reminds me of another picture. XD

5. I PASSED MY EXAMS!!!!!!

Well, needless to say how delightful I was to know about this after worrying so much for my MS. The 20 marks which I've lost. Haih. But of course, I really hope it won't affect my CGPA that much. Haih, another gloomy thing. Hmm. Don't care la.

THANK YOU buddy for letting me know my results. Was really shocked when I received her phone call. But, it was really kind of her for helping me to check my results. At least I do not have to guess and worry in vain before knowing my results.

6. PBL groupings changed again!
Well, I'm seriously speechless, don't know why they wanna change it again. Hmm. Just hope that I can get along well with my new PBL mates although I still don't know who are them yet.


7. Holidays are coming to an END! =(

Of 'D' Event of the Semester

9/10/2009
Day 1: FFFF 2114 Blood And Lymph

First paper. And the so-called easiest paper of second year. No perfect word to describe more than 心力交瘁. And then, a few stupid mistakes here and there again, which I knew the answers, but maybe during that time my brain dysfunction, so I marked the exactly opposite answers. T.T

Oh well, I wouldn't be me if I didn't do such mistakes in exams. Haih. As usual.

Full dosage of pathology. Really. Really. Tiring.

Just wanna pass!!! Please? Haih.

Ok. CVS's next. Killer killer module.

@12.14pm



10/11/2009
Day 2: FFFF2214 Cardiovascular

About the paper, frankly speaking, it was better than I thought in the sense that it was not as hard as I thought it would be. But then, it was quite tough too. A lot of critical thinking. Gah! Just hope I didn't do much stupid mistakes again(Said so because I didn't check for the answers after the paper).

However, what is more prominent about this exam is - Intermittent Sleeping Disorder. OMG, the night before was like torment to me. I couldn't remember I fell into how many lapses of sleep, at least 3 times on my study table, at least 3 times on the 'outside bed', and finally twice on my own bed! Torture torture. Definitely scared of these already.

Next up, Respi. Haih, the fearful one, coz I didn't do well in assessment. Need to work hard to compensate back. PASS!!!!!

@12.51pm



11/11/2009
Day 3: FFFF2313 Respiratory

Frankly speaking, this is the paper which I care about the most. And this is the one which sort of 'tortured' me a lot during study week(s), mainly because of all the careless mistakes I did in my assessment. Call me kiasu, but seriously, I really really worked hard for this paper. The paper today, as usual, was quite tough, with lots of critical thinking stuffs which I don't even know the answers, and they asked questions till the very very detailed part. Scary, but true. But glad that it was over already. =D Another thing worth mentioning, I really like Dr. Andrea, she's one of the reasons why I worked hard for this module. Hmm. Maybe can consider to go further towards this field? Hmm thinking thinking.

And, and, and, today they pasted out the new PBL list! Hmm, some were happy, some were not. Normal thing la. As for me, I'm ok with my new PBL members. I can learn a lot from them! Hehe. And, and, and, I got in the same PBL group again with Nalini! So it makes us 1 year of lab mates, and 1 year of PBL mates! Haha. Hope she won't get bored of seeing my face again. Lol. And, and, and, I got threatened even before my new semester commence. Lol. My ex-PBL mate's(also my ex-ex-PBL mate) princess threatened me that he will be bullying me for one sem. Eh, note that the princess thingy is not what I said, my ex-PBL mate said so. Hehe.

ZZZT2253 Pengurusan Emosi

Haih. Really ar, I don't even know how to do. Didn't study as usual. Just hope that I'll pass. Aiyoyo. I never liked ZT, as a module, or the lectures, or the exams, or the presentations, or the survey stuffs, or even the lecturer! Ha!

Uri's next! Go!

@4.57pm



12/11/2009
Day 4: FFFF2414 Urinary

The most unpredictable paper! Who knows they will come out the urothelial carcinoma? And for the whole essay? Haih, very very bad prognosis for the paper. But of course, I mean myself. Hmm. Just wanna pass la. Not really in a bad mood like everyone else, coz I'm rather moodless now. Even if there is any mood, it would be moody. Don't ask me why. And definitely not because of PMS.

Gah! Please be in the mood for tomorrow's paper. MS. Another paper which can kill a student without a blink and without knowing the cause of death.

@1.00pm



13/11/2009
Day 5: FFFF2613 Medicine and Society

Not gonna rant much. Just a word - stupid. I knew about the thing, how come I just forgot during the exams, especially it worth 20 marks? Just hope that I could just scrape a pass, or else you'll not be seeing me during the year end breaks. Sigh.

But there's one thing I really wanna mention, thanks ya Miss Yeoh for the consolations, it certainly made me feel a whole lot better. =)

@5.30am

抉。择。

是可忍，孰不可忍

亦或

忍一时，风平浪静；退一步，海阔天空？

Oh-So-Bored

I'm really bored.

Sien.

Haha, it's the time again. I mean, the panicky and suffering and mentally torturing time of the year again.

STUDY WEEK(S)!

Noticed the 's' behind? Ha! Exactly different, right? Coz normally study week comprises of 1 week only. However, we got approximately 2 weeks, all thanks to the lack of classes next week.

But, but, but..

There are still Continuous Assessment, HE exam, and mock OSCE next week! Freaking out, especially with the mock OSCE. Heard about what they said, it is not going to be easy. And, especially with my oh-so-cham clinical skills, things are going to be tough. Sigh. Still remember what happened during last semester, when I clerked that patient. T.T

Hopefully everything will be fine. Pretty pretty please? Hmm.

Looking forward to OPKIM and holidays after exam. =D

Junior Welcoming Night 2009

Date: 2009-10-18
Venue: Grand Pacific Hotel, Kuala Lumpur


We had this annual Junior Welcoming Night yesterday. It was an event which would be organized by juniors. Something like a gathering between the second year seniors and the juniors. Normally, we had this JWN quite early, during the first module I suppose. However, this year, this event was held quite late. Of course, it doesn't mean that it's all cons. In my opinion, I think it's quite good, since the juniors are closer to each other if were to compare to the times when they just came in. Therefore, they can communicate more easily, and hence, organize a better event.

And, I'm glad to say, it's a great success! Really really good job guys! =D

Mainly, JWN is about revealing who's the senior buddy to the juniors. However, this year, the flow of the events was a bit unusual, therefore, they already knew who is their buddies even before they start their classes. And that's why, the event was held so late, about finishing the first semester already.

Talking about the programmes, they really worked hard. The performances, I think, were really nice! At the very least, it really showed their sincerity. Some of the performances: Singing, fashion show, HSM dancing, Fac King and Fac Queen coronation, dancing and not forgetting, Yik Ping playing the harmonica! Oh ya, by the way, there were some 'special' events too, including Kevin's birthday surprises and some 'ritual' performed upon the ex Fac King, new Fac King, the emcee, and monkey. Hehe.

Housemates. ^_^

PBL mates. =D

My long lost ancestor xiao shu gong. =p

And of course, not fogetting my little buddies! Well, Shok Hoon couldn't make it that day, luckily there was still See Yun. Both of them were from Hua Lian. Hehe, long live Hua Lian line! =p Plus, I got another kai-buddy too. He's from Taiping as well.

Love this photo coz I looked yeng!

Little buddy - See Yun

Kai buddy - Chun Lim

Plaza Rah gang!

Taiping people!

More photos can be found here la. Hehe. That's all la, chaozz.